Friday, August 11, 2017

Another League- No time for (M)ARRIAG(E)


One fine day, when the muhurat is shubh and it’s a weekend, you exchange rings, commit vows and get married. For a lot of forthcoming days,  you have constant supply of new pictures for social media. Everything is great and then it starts settling down, you resume work, resume routine and resume the old yet more comfortable wardrobe.  Slowly and steadily, after multiple months you wake up from your marriage and realize it’s necessary to go and get some me time!

This ‘me time’ is different for everyone. For a lot of people like me, who are easily bored, this me time varies. Sometimes it’s a great cup of coffee by myself, curling up to a book and sometimes it’s going out there again, hanging out with strangers, get some fun and party real hard! And one fine day when you finally do it there are two grave realizations: One – you have a ring on your finger Second- You totally feel out of the place amongst the still buoyant, single bunch. And it’s HARROWING! This feeling – you used to rule this space and now you are just looking for a corner where another one from your league might come, catch up with you and you can feel a little better about not being alone in this – this feeling is harrowing itself. You feel old even if you haven’t touched 30s yet, and its bitter trust me. When people say “I wanna grow old with you” while proposing , I am like yeah, you will because that’s what marriage does to you It makes you feel real old on the inside. So you are thinking, oh maybe I am so out of the league, maybe I should make plans with my own league, people in similar life situations with a spouse and a routine, and yeah maybe I shouldn’t be talking too engrossed with the cute French guy right next to me – Hah! This is shit. I anyway had no intentions to get to know him beyond the geography and I am not on Tinder, I mean the spouse should just be capable to appreciate this fact alone. You might be even given the introduction sometimes “hey guys, she is just my colleague and we are not dating or anything and she has a husband” – I mean why on the planet would you just kill all my prospects of even having a goof conversation in the shadow of benefit of doubt?

It’s really another league for people like us or are we just cribbing for some attention- I am not too sure but (M)AARIAG(E) changes a lot of you and yes you fucking get old!


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