We ALL fought, learned, changed, grew stronger and hoped!

We all are fighting, all day, all time. Some are fighting bad bosses, some fighting work pressures, some fighting bitter breakups, some fighting their dreams! Some are fighting with others, some without those others! Some with themselves and some have already given up!

We all fought!

But in all this process, we all grew up a little, isn’t it? We all learned to ACCEPT and SURVIVE!! We learned to deal with the feeling of being rejected, with the hopelessness of not being loved back, the anxiety of hearing the truth about ourselves, the effort of putting ourselves back together, and if there was no one in sight , even patting our own backs just to keep the morale high!

We all learned!

We started pretending, we faked ourselves, we got overwhelmed and eventually managed to pull off with a little more controlled behavior! Finally when we thought we got this mask of pretention for the war with everything, we thought we became so cool, but oops! In all this process, we changed, and we changed a lot..!!

We all changed!

Just like a soldier returns to his camp after that long day of guarding the territory , we got back home , to ourselves, to our real selves at the end of the day and thought what the hell we were doing? We managed a great face all through the day but hello! What about now! I myself know the reality and how am I going to fight that?  So, we wore another mask – the mask of strength! We soothed ourselves, did things what we really liked, being with people who loved us even when we totally ignored them, we ate the way we liked and as much as we liked, we wrote whatever crap to our minds but cooled it off! We looked horrible but felt wonderful!

We all became strong!

And then we all got ready to fight once more if we have to with hope of being prepared for the next war , keep our masks handy so that we are not searching them around if the war is on without the bigul, and exhaled “this too shall pass…” !

We all hoped for better!

ALL of us

Goodbyes are fun

I might sound contrary to the usual belief of saying goodbye with a heavy heart but trust me, all of them aren’t that hard on you especially when you really want to get “rid” of a fewer lot!

Goodbyes are hard when you are leaving home, a place where you are most of yourself, not faking yourself even for a second, not getting overwhelmed and not being judged. Goodbyes from those- are definitely hard. Goodbyes aren’t hard at all when they are about homecoming, waving a pity hand at everybody whom you hated or cursed even for a split second- they are fun, mad “fun”.

Being "stuck"

Every one of us must have had this feeling of being “stuck” at least for once in our lives and talking from experience, being stuck surely sucks!! So what have you tried doing in those situations (in the stuck situations), tried to soothe yourself out? How?  By thinking something good? And what rather whom did you think about – your people back at home, right!! Saying goodbye to those are hard and these, who totally took the crap out of you, ha ha, its crazy fun (do try it sometime yourself)

But fun is no free ride right? You got to pay for it and pay really heavy sometimes! Infarct fun is this very temporary thing that you already know will perish in some time  and still you want to stretch a little more than you deserve and then you stretch it so much that before you realize , either the band breaks or comes back at you like a boomerang slapping you hard! That’s the price of fun.  In case the band had hit you, “that” goodbye would have been fun (the getting rid of feeling). If the band wouldn’t have hurt you even a bit and got lost somewhere, that goodbye would be hard.

But one good thing about those “fun” goodbyes, they don’t give you pain except a lesson. You say them not halfhearted but fully aware in your conscious that this it, this is the bottom line and here it ends. You don’t carry back a hope and definitely no false hopes. They might give you not-so-good memories for some time but don’t worry, when you are in a stuck situation again, you will only think of the “good memories.”

So keep your goodbyes fun , and to those with whom goodbyes are hard, don’t say goodbye to them, ever, at all!