There are habits – old ones and the new ones, habits that we
have lived with for years with and habits that we have recently acquired. Old
ones become addictions and new ones become passion. Old ones are the ones we no
more think about, they are like reflexive actions and the new ones, we long for
them, we try to seek them – to get them into our systems.
Old habits – they are realized when they seem to be sneaking
away , when one fine day we suddenly discover we are no more doing them or
rather not doing them consciously , they are just happening – themselves- like
an auto button!
New ones- we love them, we crave for them, we take conscious
efforts for them and try to pull them – towards us and even if they are off the
sight a second, we miss them – terribly!
So it becomes a war between addictions and passions! Addictions- something that we can’t live
without and passions- something we don’t want to live without!
But passions might fade away if not nurtured, kept like a
baby or even if not thought about for some time. Addictions have been there
since forever. They are more like need of the body than the soul – after all we
have tamed our bodies to be habitual of them. Passions- they rock our ecosystem
– brains, hearts and souls. Most of the thinking goes in thinking about the
passions. But if we consider the cumulative account of the thinking gone in
both of them, addiction cannot be defeated by passion.
And then we are left midways, we are in a puddle of dilemma
and have no idea which way to complete; we are almost mid ways both ways. We can’t
leave addictions and are unable to leave the passion. We are left bedazzled,
like a leg on one boat and the second on another – and deep down we know, this
will certainly not take us anywhere. So basically, neither we enjoy our
addictions anymore nor we can really do anything to fulfill the passions.
So what do we do?
We enjoy only half the fun, we see only half the beauty and
we feel only half the ecstasy.
We are left Half
Mesmerized!
PS- Old habits die
hard!
